Exhale

I open up my eyes
I take a look arround
I do not recognize any this people arround me
What happened to my scars?

What happened to her car?
And why the fuck do I feel so sober?
Is anybody listening?
Is anybody here with me?

Why this is so easy to breath again?
To whom it may concern
I think I've done it again
I push the bounderies

Of how far my luck will take me
Why I can't just be happy?
Happy with thinking clearly
For once in my life

To whom it may concern
I thinl I've done it again
Pushing the loved ones
Of people I called my family
To fade away like me
I rot away

Searching for signs of a familiar face
Or anything at all
Just yesterday
I was in your arms
And we were finally together and happy

Now I've gone and thrown it all away
To whom it may concern
I think I've done it again
I push the bounderies
Of how far my luck will take me

Why I can't be happy?
Happy with thinking clearly
For once in my life
To whom it may concern
I thinl I've done it again
Pushing the loved ones
Of people I called my family
To fade away like me
It's either hell or obscurity

Rotting dignity
Rotting away
Like the corpse that I'm supposed to be
I'm glad you know what it feels like
Living every day like me
Rotting dignity
Rotting away

Like the corpse that I'm supposed to be
I miss the sound of you voice at night
And what we were supposed to be
I don't want to be a ghost to you anymore (rotting dignity)

I don't want to be the thought in the back of your mind (rotting away)
And I really can't take the sight of your face (I'm glad you know what it feels like)
As you look at my name in a concrete line (I miss the sound of you voice at night)
I don't want to see the pearly gates (And what we were supposed to be)
Because my heaven's when you're with me