Even Now

Even now after all these years
I think about you with both joy and pain
Even now I remember when you left
I walked all night through the rain broken and lost
Swearing I'd never love that way again

Even then you were aiming much higher
Somewhere higher than you thought I could fly
Even then you were looking for rainbows
Something more than the cloudless blue sky

Now you tell me you were wrong
You never should have left me for an empty dream
And now you spill out your regrets
A mighty river to a bitter stream

Lying awake, thinking about all that might have been
I guess we're even now
I guess we're even now

Even now more often than I'd like
I think of you and the place we used to share
Even now I remember all the songs and your perfume and your hair
I was carried away 'til you cut me down in mid air

Even then there was something inside you
Something bright that was burning so cold
Even then there was something about you
Something dark that I couldn't hold

And now you tell me that your life
Has never been the free flight you thought it would be
And now you know it's way too late
All we've got is history

You know that when I lost you, you lost me
I guess we're even now
I guess we're even now
I think we're even now

Even then you were looking for rainbows
Even then in a perfect blue sky

I guess we're even now
I guess we're even now
I think we're even now
Could be we're even now

I think we're even now
I think we're even now
I think we're even now

All that summer in the moonlight
You were dreaming, I was believing
All that summer in the moonlight
You were dreaming, I was believing