Empty

I can't handle these pressures
All I can say is this stress hurts
Things are supposed to get better
I just need to put myself first
I'm always trying my hardest not to pick myself apart
This energy is killing my vibes now
Sometimes I just want to drown out
All of the thoughts in my mind, too much going on at the same time
I wish it would stop and I've tried but, life just sucks then we all die
That's just reality I don't lie to me
Yeah I'm messed up but I don't want to be
I Wonder if I'm good enough
But maybe I've had just too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I'm drowning up my sorrows
There's rules I'll never follow
Pretend there's no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow
But I'm empty inside, yeah I'm empty inside
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die
Wish I could erase my memories, so I could stop feeling so empty
I wish that shit wasn't so tempting
But it's hard to resist when there's plenty of things I could do to mess me up
I want to let go, but I'm feeling so stuck
So all I can do is fill up my cup
And sit here alone and hope no one disrupts
That's just reality I don't lie to me
Yeah I'm messed up but I don't want to be
I wonder if I'm good enough
Maybe I've had just too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I'm drowning up my sorrows
There's rules I'll never follow
Pretend there's no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow
But I'm empty inside, yeah I'm empty inside
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die
My body's shaking
My head is aching
It feels like my heart is breaking
My body's shaking
My head is aching
I can't fix this mess I'm making
But I'm empty inside, yeah I'm empty inside
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die
Yeah I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive
And I don't want to live, but I'm too scared to die