Ed was at the end of his rope, an he detested "There is no rope", he would at the laughing walls There is the end, no hope, no rope is better than mending Doors of perception, of opportunity are illusions like the killing floor
Ed spoke in a squeaky voice With perhaps a slight tinge of But this was because he couldn't be bothered To try to develop a of speaking That truly his mood
This is a vaccum, is no air in this room is no fun anymore Nihilism knocked times on the ceiling But the fingers of dawn always inserted themselves In the of unfulfilled promises
sang, "Heysanna, Hosanna" Paralyzed prima-donnas danced in the all day But when the darkness came, went home I was ready, everyone else was
And while it might have been a to see I was right all along Here I am still, alone and Awaiting the end
And I can turn it all And laugh at it and laugh at I can laugh louder than the walls, the halls, the than Charles De Gaul or Fulton Mall
But I know what I'm laughing at I don't just what I think is so goddamn funny I don't know why I don't just up And give up and lay and die
"What do I have to about anyway?" Ed his Picasso, "I'm a millionaire" This actually true Ed's was an obvious forgery
His Rothkos had just been singled out In an article in forum' entitled 'The Three Most Insignificant Paintings of Rothko' And his Barbara had been irreparably damaged By Rein Sanction and a few bands from Gainesville refused to acknowledge the value of art
"Come to of it", Ed mused To the laminated roadkill coffee table he had purchased times had seemed slightly less bleak "Come to think of it, not does art have no intrinsic value But my has no extrinsic value either"
"I know I'm not a But no reason to complain There is no to complain is no reason to do anything"
"I don't believe in reason, objective reality or farming I don't believe in public Which is another reason why I'm here I don't in life or death I would kill myself but I believe in suicide"
Ed put on a red shirt and a quick walk around the block While whistling softly to He reentered his apartment "There is no on this planet"
"Jehovah One replaced all life with machinery five ago The so-called Industrial Was just hoax and we all fell for it 'Cause we were all programmed to, I fell for it I in the steam engine Even though I don't in anything"
Logical is the Mr. Bubble I bathe in and every evening, except for yesterday evening When I roller bladed to the Masonic Temple To play pinochle with Pope Paul the First I had no choice in the matter"
Ed could go on and on And he did, and he would and he Until you or I or somebody does something it Senator of Louisiana over closed circuit television And as long as he to pontificate pointlessly I do nothing
Ed walked from the program feeling fortified and stapled His brain was buzzing, the way it did just after 'Jeopardy' He loaded up the micro bus with atlases and And for Pope County
"I've had it", he sang, "I've had it puns, alliteration literature, Italian neorealism Meaningless cross references and laundry lists of I shall without a license, without clothing, without direction"
"And if I make it to Arkansas, And if I'm running late, if I'm a numbers game It matter, I shall keep on running"
"Yes, this is the answer, is the ending, I shall keep on running a body in motion tends to stay emotional And better to feel, pain is better than emptiness Emptiness is than nothing, and nothing is better than this"