Doesn't matter

I'm lingering on when they kiss
Leaning towards this abyss
And of lately the only people I can stare
Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare
But their hands are numb and empty
Their dull silence soothes me
Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear
Thought I left ghosts behind
But they're just coming near

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

Rage as a fabric, through and through
Like that gaze used to do
'Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head
Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

She's barely feeding, but she'll deny
Ribbon-legged, she passes by
Until she surrenders in the midst of the street
And the guys simply stare but continue to eat

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

And if I'm cast out
'Cause I wanted some more
And if this guy dances too close to the shore
And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall
And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall

Forget I said it
I soliloquize
It's stinging nettle
Their hands on their thighs

Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
Don't ever tell them, I've got your back, yeah yeah
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight, yeah yeah
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah

Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
Don't ever tell them, I've got your back
(Save all you can)
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight
(You won't be found)
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
(And never come back)

It doesn't matter, does it
(And never come back)
If I know any exit
(And never come back)
If I believe in god
(And never come back)
And if god does exist

It doesn't matter, does it
(And never come back)
If I know any exit
(Save all)
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

(Save all you can)
(You won't be found)
(And never come back)