Disappear (Remember When)

Remember when I didn't need you?
Well I need you now.
To hold my head,
Up high, say it's all better child.
Remember when?

Some days I feel like a saint,
I'm so alive.
Some days I can't make it enough,
It's like I have no spine.
Can't do anything right now when midnight comes I've run out of time to
Make some kind of difference.

But I realize
I constantly overlook the impact I've made.
Maybe I'm looking to change my own fate,
To make you proud.
I wanna make you proud
When you're looking down on me.

My mind's wide open like starry skies.
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here.
I wanna disappear
With you now.
But I'm a selfish broken heart
And now I've got this far.
Coping with the thought of holding you a minute longer in my arms.

If me only, I set you free.
I feel so guilty cause I take every sunrise for granted.
Sometimes I forget your voice I can't stand it,
I am long from moving on.

Product of a free world.
Take me over the coast of
A better day.
I'm stuck in my dark days,
But I can be stronger than you remember,
We're coming up on December.

But I'm not cold.

My mind's wide open like starry skies.
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here.
I wanna disappear
With you now.

But I'm a selfish broken heart,
I wanna see what you see,
I wanna be where you are.

I wasn't ready,
I wanna see you one more time,
I never got to say goodbye.

Mind wide open like starry skies.
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here.
I wanna disappear
With you now.

Remember when
I didn't need you?
Well, I need you now,
To hold my head
Up high, say it's all better child.

Remember when
I was alone and
Crying out?
You will be missed,
But I know that you're all better now.