Crushed Down And Faded

if i get tired and frightened
at the bottom of my mind
clawing out the insides
knowing what's behind
if i get bored you'll see me
wearing out my face
you know it isn't easy
filling up that space
crushed and faded
suddenly so complicated
crawling back to you
something cold
slipping through
and i know it couldn't stay
here another day
and i don't need to
i don't need to ever know the way
it's only when you hold me
that sometimes i'd forget
kicking back the outsides
and take what i can get
it's the way you move your body
a pleasent cold release
it makes me think it's dirty
when i'm on my knees
crushed and faded
suddenly so complicated
crawling back to you
well something cold
slipping through
and i know it couldn't stay
here another day
and i don't need to
i don't need to ever know the way
i never ever lost control
i never ever lost control
in a light shining
in a quiet end
i know i never ever lost control