Crossing the Rubicon

Somewhere in the madness of a long forgotten time
Resurrect the pieces to the crime
I'm searching for an answer that somehow could explain
Why I feel this misery and pain
But who am I to pretend
The fault is mine in the end

Sifting through the ashes for any alibis
All I find is me in my disguise
Father won't you help me, hallowed be thy name
I confess I am the one to blame
And though my life fades to black
I know there's no turning back

So as I cross the Rubicon
I know I can't go on feeling this way
And I can't be like Estragon
A fool who's waiting on some better day

When all my prayers are answered and all my sins absolved
And all life's mysteries have been resolved
Father won't you tell me, why life is such a sham
And why I don't know who the hell I am
And though I'm feeling estranged
I must admit somehow I've changed

So as I cross the Rubicon
I know I'll carry on, oh come what may
And I can't be like Estragon
A fool who's waiting on some judgement day

Woke up in a cold sweat screaming
Same dream I'm always dreaming
Look out there's a monster waitin'
Comin' for me with the mark of Satan

Can't run I'm in slow motion
I can't swim in the middle of the ocean
I can't breathe I need intubation
Everywhere I look there's complete devastation
Wake me
Wake me, somebody wake

(interlude)

And as I cross the Rubicon
I vow to carry on, oh come what may
And I'll not be like Estragon
Some fool who's waiting for someone to say

It's OK...

it's ok...

it's ok...