Confused

I've been through so many changes
I don't know which way to go
Yet I've got it so together
I can see with my eyes open
Or with my eyes closed

Late at night I cry and wonder
Why my life's goin', goin' nowhere
But during the day everything is okay
I'm having it my way, I say

My teachers tell me that I am a lost soul in a black hole
But my mind, it tells me that I'm doing just fine
Oh, if everything is peachy, why can't anybody reach me
I've always said I don't need anybody else

I'm so confused
So confused
And I'm destined to lose
Unless I follow another way

Spent all my time lookin' for something
Never knew what for
Tried out all the options just to find
That more pain and hurt was in store

Been through it all, but the one thing
That I still run from is You
Still I remember 'bout all the things
My momma said that You could do

She said that if I only let You in my life
You could take away the sorrow and the emptiness inside
But to be true the life I'm living, it's hard to let it go
Though I've spent my whole life learning
There's so much that I don't know

I'm so confused
So confused
And I'm destined to lose
Unless I follow another way

I'm so confused
So confused
And I'm destined to lose
Unless I follow another way

I hear You calling, telling me to leave it all behind
If I could only find the answers to the questions in my mind
I wonder could it be my mind's not meant to understand
Maybe I should go with my heart and put my life in your hands
Surrender to You

I'm so confused
So confused
And I'm destined to lose
Unless I follow another way