Calling Upon My Heart

calling upon my heart,
suppression me by ordering,
can't control own mind
can't do it alone

can't remember anything

salvaging me,
salvaging me,
salvaging me,

fighting, tussling, every single moment
is that representing our own hell
am i become self hatred
am i become a slave

how i escape from this parasite
how i relinquish this parasite
this is a mass suppression which impaled
my soul

should i yield the palm to,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
if i keep my eyes closed they will never
& ever find me

a serpent rises in my body
can i away from this eternal nightmare