Another Day, Another Struggle

Well I've been waiting in the back just wondering how
To make this begin
But under weight of drugs and alcohol
That have rendered me defenseless
You'll call me worthless
I know I'm worth this
And I've been waiting all along
Someday I'll ride this out of here
Where baby, I'll show you how I won't miss home at all

There's a man in the bar who looks up to you
Even though he is like half your age
He's never gonna know what you're going through
Or what it must be like to have to shoulder all the weight
On a daily basis

We put up, we put out, we put in the time
The clock is running out, you gotta do it now

I have much in mind for what's in store
But first I gotta complete this phrase
It's like that man once said
"You gotta hit the ground running or you'll fall,
Before things ever go your way"

So now I'm standing in the back just learning how
To keep this going
But under weight of drugs and alcohol
That have rendered me defenseless
Don't call me worthless
I've gotta have purpose
And I've been waiting all along
Someday I'll ride this out of here
Where baby, I'll show you how I won't miss home at all

The woman in the dark that you're plowing through
Is just another flawless perk of the trade
So many men that I have known are abusing you
Because this is the way you paint yourself on canvas, babe
What an awful price to pay

This is not what I've been looking for
Still it's how I'm gonna spend my days
Since I can't count my sins
I'll cover them up like I know they don't exist
Still I will not be ashamed

Wait...
Besides this awful purpose
That I tend to show some days
I only have the best intentions
So I will not be afraid...
Afraid of what they'll say

There's no more waiting in the back cause I've figured out
A way to begin
And under weight of drugs and alcohol
Is exactly where we wanna be
You can call me worthless
I know my purpose
And I've been ready all along
To ride my calling outta here
Where baby, I'll show you how I won't
How I won't miss
How I won't miss home at all