All This Time

Words & music by Jen Foster

Won't you please tell me just where you're going
I'm on edge with this uncertainty
I know I have made it hard to get to know me
It's terrifying - you may not like what you see
And I know that you would love to break me down
But some things are just too hard to talk about
All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth
All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you
All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'?
Please don't leave, I never meant to hurt you
I'm just locked up in this solitary pain
I learned young that keeping secrets is a virtue
What happened to me - I can't bring myself to say
And I know that if I say it, it is true
And I'm scared that you would leave me if you knew
All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth
All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you
All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'?
As you leave I say a quiet prayer for mercy
One more time, just turn around and look at me
And as I pray, you say you never would desert me
"In fact, come with me - I was just going out for groceries."
And the stars fade out in the sky tonight
And the dawn breaks in and spreads the light