A Love Affair With Distance

I've lost my voice, I've said all I have to say
Youre thick as porcelain, as clear as cellophane
I miss the nervous shake, I miss the way it hurts
The way it killed to think that I had you first
That I had you first

So then I force a smile, I take the stage
Now my knees are weak, I try to concentrate
Im losing air with every single breathe that I take

I look into your eyes, I see the chemicals
You're the whitest white, you've become a ghost
You're dead to me, so why can't I let you go?

The phone is like a knife, I drive into my ear
I had a love affair with distance and with fear
The bus is like a hearse driving me from her
She's as black as white, she the perfect curse
Shes the perfect curse

So then I force a smile, I take the stage
Now my knees are weak, I try to concentrate
Im losing air with every single breathe that I take

I look into your eyes, I see the chemicals
You're the whitest white, you've become a ghost
You're dead to me, so why can't I let you go?

And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie
You could come down on me
And if you saved my life, how could I survive
You're the one who made me this way

So then I force a smile, I take the stage
Now my knees are weak, I try to concentrate
Im losing air with every single breathe that I take

I look into your eyes, I see the chemicals
You're the whitest white, you've become a ghost
You're dead to me, so why can't I let you go?