A Friend's Blues

Now when your young death can make you aware of your mortality,
Yet times we feel invicible, lose site of reality,
until it takes a loved one residing in our circle,
it'll hurt you 'cause you miss them,
once were close now you're distant,
and it hurts just to know they could go at any instant,
gotta love them by the minute, now you realize this,
its sad it takes a loss to appreciate the gifts,
so celebrate the occasion,
just breathing is amazing,
to see the sun rise and set at a day's end,
a chance to fix mistakes that we regret making,
find joy in the simple things, no time for complaining,
the sun will shine, it cant always be raining,
I know it hurts deep, but you must maintain,
I see it in my homeboys Terry and Tom,
they lost so many, yet they keep so strong,
to lose a parent or a sibling and have the will to keep living,
takes so much strength, so i admire y'all,
and one day hope to find out what inspires yall,
'cause im still mad askin why it happens at all,
some say that god takes them
and they lean on mythology,
but i choose to believe that its divine lottery,
i cant believe gods lookin down waitin to slaughter me,
i cant live in fear
and i cant live here forever, so i treasure every moment

And its friendship that i value the most,
That kinship, The ones we hold close,
and deal with it the most of losin but keep tru,
the memories blue 'cause life keeps moving. (2X)

We came together like family like it was our first death
Unexpected, so quick, so sudden, the worst yet,
Didnt get to know the girl ?? the first breath,
still we loved her like a sister, as a ?? first steps,
got the call out of town, so alone i first wept,
deep pain in the same place from where this verse crept,
never slept in that bed again, the memory was too tragic,
looked up and screamed goodbye,
you wouldnt be present at the wake,
in your casket, now you ask if things change since you left, not really.
We still playin games, BSin, actin silly,
see she dont talk to her and she dont like me,
and will we work things out, thats not likely,
i mean where will we start, do we mend friendships,
or let things fall apart, will we still be in touch,
honestly i don't know, but you're in my heart forever.

And its friendship that i value the most,
That kinship, The ones we hold close,
and deal with it the most of losin but keep tru,
the memories blue 'cause life keeps moving. (3X)

And its friendship that i value the most,
That kinship, The ones we hold close,
and deal with it the most of losin but keep tru,
?????????????????????????? blow a blunt while you cruisin,
of your friends that you use it? gotta love before you lose it,
stand strong when you do it, tough times live through it,
don't give into em, stay go pursuin, and doin what you doin,
'cause life keeps movin on